Inside war.

I should say I find peace in writting. Actually, doing it in english makes myself a little bit more expressive than usual. Don't know why but it works.

Lately, I feel dissapointed and motivationless at eerything. Perhaps I'm sort of depressed again and don't want to accept it. It's just that everyone seems happier than me... around me. That's the matter.

It also has been a lot of thougth about nothing at all. This is so not going anywhere. Worst of all, I don't know the reason why I'm like this. Let's check out.

Girls? I've never been in good company if I'd remind to myself. Actually, I was thinking that's in human nature to be in company of others. I wonder if I'm antinatural. Maybe I'm just a lonely boy surrounded by a bunch of people like everybody else.

Money? Not quite. I mean, it has never been a surplus but this time it's under control or at least that's supposed to be.

What else is always a pain in the ass? Think I'm missing something.

Well, let's go out to the world and try to find out.

She knows. I'm quite sure she knows. People tell me this is obvious and I'm not buying it. I think it's time to realize she's not for me. Not right now. She's a girl and I'm an old soul.


Maybe I'm the best, as everybody says, but I'm not enought for her and if this is a game. Guess what! I'm not playing.

I wish her my best. Hope to meet again sometime.


Cheers!